must be wondering why i deleted my previous post yeh?
ya, cause i just realised something today.
"we all start new everyday,
and we promised that we will do better,
the problem is the execution."
it seems like a phrase in a show,
but it is the fact.
sorry is what i have to say to myself now.
before coming back from KK,
i was telling mysel "shadow, get a new life."
yeh, and i start trying to be better,
be nice to people, smile to others, mores and mores.
but i guess i broke the promise that i'd make to myself by just a blog.
and today, i realised a lot of thing and i got a brand new of thinking in my mind.
im gonna make it, no matter how hard it is.
at least i think that i made it today.
im not angrying, i talked to him,
no matter how harsh he treated me,
i still keep the smile on my face.
because this morning i promised to my GOD,
that im gonna be nice to him.
and i think i did it pretty well. right?
however,i was about to cry during my lunch break.
but i always remember what my dad told me.
"your tears is your treasure"
then i swallowed all the tears immediately.
this make me realised something again.
"nothing is hard."
i used to be such a "cry bag", and now i actually made it!
i did what i wanted myself to be.
so, how hard is it?!
seriously,
im telling myself now.
i have to change this life.
but maybe its been too long that i never talk to the others.
because i was sticking with my family all this time.
i even forgot how to socialize,
but i will still want to try.
sorry to all my friends, cause i admit that i'd neglected you all for so long.
and thanks to those who never leave me no matter what happened.
i promised i will be better ^^
today, is a new day.
and i actually made it.
(a long and boring post, sorry, i just blogged it here so it reminds me all the times when i want to blog)
